August 2011
1 post
I’m missing myself. Bold an obscene. Hiding the deformities in my brain. Poking, prodding. So alone. trapped In my head of guilted swirls. Violently crashing and colliding, bursting, bubbling. Watch my dreams falter at your feet. Never known love, never really knew you. My inner thighs have brushed your cheeks more then these fingertips. Guilty no? Saddened yes. Becoming this human I...
July 2011
1 post
I have not written in ages. Being a mother twists your life so drastically. Never thought I would be here. Never thought I would see days like these. Everything I visioned as my future gone. But I don’t see that as a loss. I have gained the two most beautiful people in my life. My beautiful son greets me every morning with the deepest purest smile these eyes have ever seen. I never thought I...
February 2011
1 post
Little boy, when you speak I cant help but kiss your cheeks I love the way you grab my hands And tell me all about your plans
Rocket high, comets fly You and I could take a ride And fly away to Neverland And give our best to Peter Pan
When you reach for the stars Dont forget who you are And please dont turn around and grow up way too fast See the sand in my grasp From the first to the last Every...
January 2011
3 posts
the things people to do one another are just baffling to me. cheating, lying, saying hurtful things. why is it we really hurt the ones we love most. people change in an instant these days; and for whatever reason. i am growing tiresome of the excuses; the whys and the ifs. every so often i am let down by another person. realizing most people just aren’t as good as you thought they were....
i wish i knew at sixteen how fucking good i had it.
December 2010
15 posts
voice like a bell
Noisy in my head. Voice rings like a bell. And try as I might I cannot forget. And try as I might I cannot love you less. Say how long you’ll stay… Wrapped up in the hour. Marking off the days Maybe we both, knew it at the time. Well I don’t know about you… but for me, it’s about, the passing of measures. but for me, it’s about, all of lifes little pleasures....
im tired; and the wiseness in your voice is telling me to go home.
sngh
its kind of strange how we once wound up together. the intelligence you lack is quite astonishing. I dont recall one intelligent conversation with you; i thought i could change you; i thought i could cram intelligence into your skull. boy’ was i wrong, i was so wrong. the years of drugs, and the years of no schooling pretty sums you up. some say i talk about you to much. i feel like i do to,...
most beautiful book in the world- that Oscar and I found out powells towards the beginning of our relationship; we read it over and over flipped through the pages & fell more in love with one another.
It’s a step It’s a step in the right direction It’s a tough and final decision ‘Cause where will I go when I’m feeling blue? Spinnin’ my wheels Wastin’ my time Makin’ you feel you’ve nothing to hide So save me and tell me how it all got so doubtful Leave me nothing at all Back on the old road You’re wishing you’ll wind me down Give...
November 2010
6 posts
favorite photographer-
yeah, well I have a lot of things to say to you to;
but that never meant anything did it?
when I speak to you I begin to drown, i get whipped around in the big mess that you are, the big mess you have carried me in through my whole life. i can’t say it wasn’t worth it, for the person i am today is tormented with the demons you possessed me with. everyday i try to be everything your...
Well I met you at the blood bank
We were looking at the bags
Wondering if any of the colors
Matched any of the names we knew on the tags
You said see look it that's yours
Stacked on top with your brothers
See how they resemble one anothers?
Even in their plastic little covers
And I said I know it well
That secret that you know
That you don't know how to tell
it f--ks with your honor
And it...
Ezra
you are the most beautiful thing that has ever happened to me-
with every kick and every twist, I fall more in love with you
the day our eyes meet is the day I promise to never let you down
mommy will always be here for you, to try as hard as I can to make all the bad things go away
everyday I love you more & more
October 2010
2 posts
chances are, you aren’t going to find your love in a fucking book store or a quaint coffee shop. dream, dream, dream. that is all you got.
chances are, you aren’t eccentric and you aren’t differen’t
chances are, your views of beauty, are everyone’s views of beauty
chances are, you dream for love that is just a trend
chances are, your soul is just a black ugly...
sometimes life is over dramatic. i can’t wait for the years to set in, where maybe just one day i won’t act like such a prima donna, same goes for my beautiful significant other. sometimes you just need to realize that life really isn’t always that difficult at times, its “you” making it that difficult. it is so much easier just to kick back and breath and love.
...
September 2010
2 posts
the changes in my life come sweet and blissful. i wouldn’t do it with anyone else. people are judgmental, people dont know what i have with you. nobody can peer into our lives and see what we see, even the ones closest to us. i gift wrapped my heart for you and gave it to you, and you took it, and you took my hand and told me everything will be okay. the day you slipped that ring on my...
a bunch of old photos, a bunch of old memories. bumping beats, swaying my hair back and forth. thoughts of my own, twisting and weaving throughout these old memories, tomorrows a new day, i forget more, i love you less. i dont feel like im done, i dont feel like its right. but these feelings are just feelings and my thoughts are just irrational statements i make up in this tormented brain. i miss...
August 2010
2 posts
sometimes i feel like i have seen it all, felt it all, and dreamt it all. my world is vanishing in the midst of my own boredom, my own depression. my lack of wanting to see it all. i lack what is real in life, and i am lacking in everything i desire to be.
June 2010
1 post
when everything was well; the streets were beautiful, the trees were beautiful, and staring in your eyes took my to a special place.
May 2010
12 posts
So I see that shaving half of your head is in these days, does the top of my head count too?
the let downs in my life have came to be subtly in a soft slumber. i am faced everyday with the let downs of my past, i just walk on and believe that one day, maybe i won’t be let down. maybe i have to high of standards, or maybe im just trying to live in this fairy-tale i have created in my own mind, but when do you just start settling? when? when do you get a true romance and a true lover,...
my friend,
the land has brought us together once again, i see and feel the palm trees swaying in the ocean mist breeze, i see them in my mind. you have escaped me so many times, you planted an angry seed inside of my soul and poured water on it until it grew into a furious mess of tangled branches and leaves almost black. i have let those leaves fall, for the love that i have for you. i let you...
you fooled me into thinking i was your rare wild flower.
time expelling, mind flustered. today of all days to experience the one known hurt, that hurts and hurts again. today tomorrow, forever. today i have became the fool, fool of life, and love. a fool of my own thoughts, i fooled myself to believe that every man i have been with, loves me. there is always a reason. delicate, smooth, soft, my heart has no bounds. the bounds that circle my brain in an...
oh'
your beauty swallows me whole. your soft presence, with the natural glow of your low eyes. you melt me into a harsh river, searching, searching, for you. i search for your touch everyday, only to come up short. i breathe hard everyday, huffing and puffing, only hoping that if i act like a tornado somehow i will catch you in the harsh breeze. but i am not nature, i fool myself to often, i miss you,...
sometimes im not okay with myself, other days, I am perfectly happy.
"Facebook is for people you go to school with....
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This, pretty much.
April 2010
10 posts
tme bing
i sometimes dread reading old posts, i was so fucking desperate. you think the person is destined to read it and come back to you. the thoughts of a young hopeless romantic are quite hilarious if you ask me. things just do not work that way. there is a reason movies are movies, because they are perfect little scenarios of what we want life to be. maybe if we stop comparing our lives to movies we...
myslf
hopefully in the future i will know what true love feels like. the one with little pain, and much needed happiness. these are rare occurrences of course, but just “just” maybe, it might happen to myself.
gh
i wonder when you won’t take me seriously anymore, with the flip of the wrist your gone and out, and my foolish ways will turn into past events. baby, don’t ever take me seriously, i will fool you all over the fucking place.
