yeah, well I have a lot of things to say to you to;
but that never meant anything did it?
when I speak to you I begin to drown, i get whipped around in the big mess that you are, the big mess you have carried me in through my whole life. i can’t say it wasn’t worth it, for the person i am today is tormented with the demons you possessed me with. everyday i try to be everything your not, it consumes me, to not become like you, it consumes me whole like you consumed yourself, in the fury; the wrath. everything you bundle yourself up to be. a tornado, never know what your gunna do, never know what your gunna say. always leaving my tiny little soul on edge, always keeping me waiting. you were always so good at that, always so good and scaring the living shit out of me. the little girl still lyes inside me, every time your voice penetrates my ears, i fall back to the times in those childs shoes. i am scared for what the future holds, for- with every year you become more mad then the last. but i can’t leave you, i will never leave you. your insanity keeps me close, because if there is no me, i know there would be no you.
& you always keep me close enough to push me the fuck away.
