I have not written in ages. Being a mother twists your life so drastically. Never thought I would be here. Never thought I would see days like these. Everything I visioned as my future gone. But I don’t see that as a loss. I have gained the two most beautiful people in my life. My beautiful son greets me every morning with the deepest purest smile these eyes have ever seen. I never thought I could love someone so much it shakes me soul. I wake up to his gleaming face every morning. And I watch his tired eyes shut every night as he falls asleep warmly on my chest. I cry as I write this, for I cannot explain the beauty that penetrates every aspect of my being. His smell perks up my day, his warmth surrounds my body with every touch and every kiss. I always thought I would travel this world alone, I always thought I would never get married. Maybe have a child in my late thirties. But now I am here worrying about things I never thought I would worry about. Being excited about things I never thought I would be. Nothing is more pure then watching the loves of my life dancing together, laughing together. Nothing has ever prepared me for what I am feeling. The emotions captivate me and suffocate me until I just can’t stand it. This life was not chosen by me. It was a swift fork in the road I took by accident. And I would never ever go back.
